Mommy Meltdown

  My heart beats slowly…. I’m focused on what is yet to come. Tomorrow is not promised no matter who you are. Some days are harder than hard, But we take in stride what has yet to come. I hold on to the hope of good in the world, Only to understand that the powers of evil invade all who allow. We stand united as one, make America great again, they chum on. Please tell me, when was America ever great. From the mouth of my ancestors, great, is not a word they would have used. Hurt. Pain. Respect that was fought to gain. I can hear the cries; I can see the rain. The only thing we are united in is hurt and pain. I fear for my children and those yet to come. What will they face? What have we done? We sit and stare at screens thinking of all the mean and hateful things to say. If someone doesn’t know your past, how can they help with your future? I grew up in a time when things were somewhat hopeful. Where movie stars stayed in movies. Where si...

Hello there! After Tuesday night, I think some funny convos are needed. Here is part two of “ Convos with my kiddos .” Enjoy, laugh, and take a moment to breathe. We are all in this together! *P.S. I'm keeping names out, so if you see Re****, that's just someone's name*   *This is all five of my kiddos in order by age* *The one in the middle gives me most of my content, lol* (2018)  "Help your sister make the no-bake bars" *they go into the kitchen* "Mom, how long do we put these in the oven for?" *I just had to sit there in confusion. Was it not in the name* "OOOOOOO never mind! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My two oldest daughters have mentors they have been with since kindergarten (now they are 16 and 14 years old). One of my daughters went out with her mentor not too long ago, and this was the conversation we had when she came back. “Mom, Sa*** sa...

 The ABCs of a Mommy Meltdown is a poem I wrote years ago. Unfortunately, I cannot find the original, so I wrote a revised version. My original was all about the crazy life I was living at the time as a mom with two under two and three elementary-age children, starting my journey of becoming a SAHM. Up until that point, I had always worked. Since I was 13 years old, I had been doing some form of work, whether it was babysitting (I have a very large family; my grandmother on my mom’s side had 11 children) or, once I turned 16, getting an actual, no benefits included, paid job. Now, my “meltdown” is appearing in a different form. I am starting to have growing pains—the pains of watching my once sweet, cherub-faced babies grow up and become their own person, and it hurts. Don’t get me wrong. I am a proud momma. I love watching them grow and make choices on their own (whether good or bad; I’ll be there through all that I can). But it all seems to be happening so quickly that I al...

 Let’s talk…… How are you doing today? Okay……... Yeah……… Did you do anything exciting this week? …………. Did you have anyone to talk to about your week? If not, you can talk to me…. I’ll listen to you……. If you want, there’s a comment box at the bottom of this page. You can talk to me about anything, and I’ll listen. Sometimes you just need someone to talk to about the bad and good things. Knowing someone is taking the time to show you that you matter can be a big deal. So, I’m not writing a long post today or going into any stories about anything. I just want to lend an ear and listen to whatever it is you’ve been wanting to talk about but haven’t had the chance to find someone who will actually listen. I’m listening, you are being heard.     ***I also have an email account set up for the Mommy Meltdown blog. If you don’t want to leave a message in the comments and would feel more comfortable emailing please feel free to. You will still get a ...

Growing up I was always told to only rely on myself. No matter what don’t ever NEED anyone. Regardless, most of the people who were telling me this were either on marriage number 1-something, divorced, and/ or childless. Most of them were professionally happy though. I would hear these people I looked up to say things like, "I don't need no man/ woman to make me happy." or "I can be happy all by myself” or “I’m happy only relying on myself”. For a long time, I thought that was what I needed to be. A strong self-sufficient woman who didn't need anyone. Not just a man, in some cases not even children, just myself. Then......well….. I became a mom.  I had waited and waited for 9 months to finally have this tiny human. There she was in my arms looking up at me ready to face a scary big world.  That was the moment I knew that I DID need someone in my life. I couldn't be alone and be okay with that forever. I'm not saying that some people can’t do that, go for ...

 I took the best vacation ever! First off let's just talk about how well-needed this was. Now let's get into details...... I wanted to go somewhere warm but not too hot. I wasn't sure if I wanted to be by the water or something more inland. I decided on a little bit of both water and land.  I got myself a beautiful air B&B that was within walking distance to the water. I needed to make sure I kept my options open. It was not like I was going to go swimming or anything but maybe I'd want to just take a stroll by the water. All I wanted to do was find a nice cozy spot and read, maybe even write, and definitely relax. I just wanted time to myself, somewhat of a foreign concept to me. Somehow, I had it, no children, no crazy drama, just me, my thoughts, and a quiet spot for me to relax.  The place I was staying at had a beautiful garden area out back, quite big too. It was beautiful and there was a big tree towards the back of the yard with a lovely seat just under it. ...